Where to even start? I have no clue! So here are some highlights in our lives lately:

It was quite the journey but I think it's safe to say that Oaklee is finally potty trained! Many tears were shed on our potty training journey. . Mostly mine! I can laugh about it now. Hysterically thinking back to putting the 10th pair of underwear for the day in the washer after just scrubbing the floor on my hands and knee's crying out of frustration and thinking that she was never going to get it and I would have a 10 year old in diapers. But I learned a very valuable lesson from her, even though I was beyond ready for her to be trained, she wasn't. And she had to do it when she was ready.
She is a treat. She constantly makes me laugh. Like the other day when out of the blue she sang "pants on the ground" from American Idol. "looking like a fooo". She has an obsession with princess things. Princess plates, princess jewelry, and her favorite, her princess underwear. She has about 5 of the same pair and every single one is always accounted for.
We recently planted a little garden and she loves to help me keep it up. She carries buckets of water and trudges through the plants and dumps it where ever she thinks needs it, like the only spot in the garden that doesn't have a plant growing. And then says "Mom this is so beautiful."
She loves cupcakes and sprinkles. Swings and books. Nursery, and coloring books. I love her so much.

Bridger is squishy. I absolutely cannot help but pinch his bum when he is naked. And his legs, oh my those legs. He had the same stats as Oaklee at 2 months. 11 lbs 8 ounces. He will be 3 months on the 1st of June and for the life of me I cannot figure out where that time went? He makes me so happy.

Colton got a new job at Nestle and we are adjusting to the difference. It's a lot different schedule but were pretty excited for the change. He is a treat too.

As for me, I am truly enjoying life. (as corny as that sounds). but really I am. Motherhood is an amazing, evolving journey. It is so hard sometimes, but the sweetness of it all is breath taking. I find myself wishing I could freeze time for a moment. Freeze when were all, dogs included, laying on our bed crunching pop corn all over my sheets watching a movie. Or flying each other off our massive bean bag and cracking up. Just the simple times, when were all together.

So in love with him

Bridger arrived March 1st 2010 at 11:46 am weighing 6 pounds 3 ounces. I can't complain too much about the delivery, it was, well for lack of a better word, easy! Having an epidural that worked this time around kinda helped :) It amazes me how much I love this new little life. It is something that I cannot explain but it is so beautiful and sacred. I held him in my arms for the first time after his delivery and tears poured down my cheeks. I was washed over with emotions. And everything changed in that moment. A good change. A new life.
As for my little Oaklee, well her world changed too. And she wasn't so sure about if she wanted to keep him or not. In the hospital she said "Mom lets leave him here k?"But just as she is possessive over her play-doh, and books, she has become possessive over her little "bridgey" too. Try and take him and wow. Mother hen comes alive.
Despite the chaos and sleep deprived fog I love where we're at right now.
I can't imagine life without little B.

Meet little puppy... She doesn't have a name yet... Any suggestions? She came to us on Christmas day. I had no idea she was coming until Santa, aka Grandpa Brent placed her on my lap and said "Merry Christmas!" Well alrighty then. How could I turn down those little faces? It was love at first sight for Oaklee. She has become the proud mother hen of the little fluff. The poor thing is in strollers, baskets, blankets, purses, and once even rescued from the shower. Better learn to run!
All in all, even with the shock of our new addition, It turned out to be a really great Christmas for all of us, and we have so much to be thankful for.

We rung in the New Year with good food and wii in our underwear... I like the way this year is going already.

Last Saturday we had a Halloween themed b-day party for Oak with the extended family.

This was about the only picture where the hat is on, the eyes are focused (some what) and the girls are actually standing next to each other. Seriously this is a feat. I'm tootin my own horn on this own I know, but I'm so proud of this very very homemade looking pumpkin cake I made.

You know you live in Utah when you take pictures of your spread of food. Mmmm pumpkin bread bowls....

I sat on the couch that day just sucking it all in. The crisp weather outside, the smell of chili warming on the stove, the laughter of all our family. Her smile.

The simple things.

I have been anxious all day....

wondering....

waiting....


wishing......



My ultra sound appointment was today, and it was so NEAT! It seriously is amazing to have the technology to see my 7 oz baby floating around in there. Oaklee was there with us too and she was so cute. She was fascinated by the machines and the little heart beat we got to hear. And Colton.. My sweet husband, his face was priceless when they told us the gender. A BOY! An instant sense of pride and a HUGE smile came over him. It was so sweet.
I'm laying next to him in bed right now and he is still smiling.
Love these moments!

Two years ago yesterday Oaklee was born. It blows my mind that she really turned two. Yesterday. I have a two year old now. It's crazy to think where we were two years ago. Actually, to be honest, it's painful to think about where we, more so I, was two years ago. One word still rings sharp and familiar in my ear...Pseduoseizures. If that sounds like a crazy person word, it probably is. But it is real and very scary. Sometimes I wish that I could go back in time and erase those memories and moments... Ones where I should have been contently enjoying Oaklee's little life, and not in a hospital bed staring up at the fake bright lights, with no answers and a world, no actually a universe, of guilt.. I wish I wouldn't have cared so much about what people were thinking, I wish I would have fully embraced my miracle, BUT with that said, I am grateful for what I went through, because without those experiences I never would have gained the priceless wisdom and outlook I have now. I learned and accepted so many things about myself during that time. Yes I am young, you are right supermarket lady that told me I look like I look like I could be Oaklee's older sister. (Should have seen her face when I said, "actually I'm her mom... it was awesome.) And yes it is hard. But I'm all about the moments in life that make it ALL worth it, Like yesterday at Oaklee's birthday, and this priceless photo I snapped with my ghetto camera. I AM embracing it. and it is so WORTH IT.

*Happy Birthday my sweet little girl. I love you.